Creative writing final

I wake up in the morning
wishing for a good day
when already the panic sets in
as the time ticks, ticks, ticks away

Getting ready for a normal day is a challenge
the rituals are time consuming if not done right,
It’s an everyday battle for me
it’s a never ending fight

you have to stand on a certain side of me
stand to the left, no no now on the right
I’m sorry, please bare with me,
I try to control this monster, this monster with all my might

throughout the day alone, it’s calming
everything spotless, clean, and in its place
although the slightest movement, rearranging
it opens the flood gate for the race

Cleanliness is key in my world
frightened by germs, I picture them in my head
crawling all over everything, contaminating me
with all this sickness to spread

my anxiety takes over, having all the control
this is the constant burden, which I heave
my heart begins to pound, blood pressure starts to rise
I want to be released, please let me leave

It keeps building up a wall inside me
with all emotions becoming numb
the feeling of shortness in breath
that the monster strips me from

not being in control of the inner self
creates a reaction bringing out the obsessive
finding the balance between the two
the yin and yang are quite regressive

constant distractions in my mind never shut up
telling me what to do, what to do, what to do
the compulsion is going into over load
as the time ticks, ticks, ticks away
I can no longer focus, I am in shut down mode


By Kristin Burke


This is a poem is describing the battle that I tend have with my anxiety and my ocd habits. I tried to express how events through out my every day may spike my anxiety that cover my unique compulsions. It was difficult to present this to the class as its an insight on my way of life, but everyone was really supportive even adding in their weird compulsions too. :) thanks guys